been awhile...

but the reason for my absense isn't because I no longer want to blog (although I have to admit that my little bubble has had trouble letting me out!) but because of lack of internet. I finally have internet...all of my own and let me tell you how much I love it. I LOVE IT!! so excited to be able to do what I want to do and not have to drive down to the stinkin' coffee shop and park outside to connect to the world wide web. it's amazing the things that we take for granted...and in this day and age...being connected is everything! that being said...I will be able to start my etsy shop up again! wooohoooo!! it's been sitting empty and vacant since last October...but slowly but surely I will be working on getting it loaded back up and ready to go. there is even a free shipping back to business special...so check it out!!

lessee...what is going on with me? well first of all..I'm in the middle of a crisis. seriously. *sigh* I literally was in tears on tuesday night. see...I am really wanting another baby. for the last couple of months I have been yearning for one. dreaming about them...dreaming about them getting stolen...lol. it's funny but when I had my hysterectomy I was totally okay with the fact that I was done having kids. I was content with my two boys and knew that's all we wanted...as we didn't want any kids after my hubby turned 30. but I am wanting one something fierce. is it my age? I dunno but I do know that it sucks...it sucks that I don't have a choice and it sucks that I didn't HAVE to have a hysterectomy I just had a stupid OB.

what else? well my boys are in wrestling and that has pretty much run my life for the last couple of months. I LOVE IT!! I love watching them...it always amazes me how strong they are...for how scrawny they are!! lol we started them late...it's only their second year wrestling. Mathew has some really tough competition as the kids in his age bracket have been wrestling for four and five years...that is HUGE when it comes to skill and technique. Auston is doing a bit better as the kids he's wrestling are at about his level. he placed 6th at the state tournament. we have our last tournament this weekend and unfortunately Mathew won't be able to wrestle because of some personal issues. (think...ummm...testicles! poor guy) but I'm excited to watch and cheer on Auston and the rest of the boys who will be competing. it's been a blast!

and I'm really trying to get my photography thing going. I'm planning on taking some classes so I am more confident in my ability. I really want to be able to get a business going because it's something I really enjoy and wouldn't it be great to do something that you love to do??

lastly I am starting my running again...it's my third week this week. haven't really seen any real results simply because I can't stop STUFFING MY FACE. but today is day four of no cookies or ice cream or yummy candy. I know it sounds pitiful but I have an amazing sweet tooth. :) this morning I ran a mile with stairs and then walked/ran another mile because my calf kept cramping up! but I feel so much better during the day after I get up and exercise. sometimes though, getting up at 5am just is so danged hard.

okay..I think that's enough rambling for my first post back. :)